Sorry to hear about your Ex's vicious abuse, Ayame. I had 2 former spouses that were also physically, mentally and sexually abusive to me. My first ex was the worst, It took me a long time to want to have sex again, or even attempt to be with another man. When I did, I picked wrong again. 3rd times a charm, as they say, and I couldn't ask for a better man. So Me Very happy and sexually healthy now... omg...

Kuro... I hope your medical issues go away soon. It sucks not being up to doing what you love in any manner.
TC All.